Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Change is in the air

I've been praying my butt off and made some decisions....some decisions that will hopefully open the doors (like God has opened my heart) to a wonderful couple in need of a surrogate. I feel like a weight is lifted.
Hopefully my next post will be forward progress. And hopefully it will be soon (although I have this funny feeling it's all unfolding just as God has planned)
He is pruning me for sure ;)
Special shout out to my hubby- (not that he reads this) but I am so thankful for a man like him that stands by my side and supports me, all while letting me be me. He knows I over analyze the crap out of everything and in the end he trusts my decisions. Love you babe!

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Trying to pass the time

No big news on my end.... Just trusting that God is lining everything up for this future perfect match. In the meantime I am enjoying bonding with other surrogates and learning of their stories. Waiting sure is hard! This has already taught me so much. Just because I'm ready to do this doesn't mean it will happen when I want. I've learned that I can't control everything- in fact quite the opposite.
I've had the honor and blessing of meeting up with a local surrogate. She has really helped me (along with a few other surros from the agency)to realize that this is not just a journey for the parents but myself as well. I can be as picky as I want :) I know that although right now waiting sucks, it will be that much sweeter when the time does come. I'm surprisingly calm these days. Please pray that God doesn't make me wait too much longer;)