7 week ultrasound

Friday was the big day! Husband and I drove down to where the daddies live for our first ultrasound.
It sure was eventful
Not even a quarter of the way into our trip, and the snow starts. Of course it would.
I crashed our car :(
Bad.
Well, I wasn't going very fast, and no other car was involved- that's a bonus.
Long story short, we now have a rental car and the bonus I'm getting from work is now going for our deductible :(
Sounds about right.
We are fine and baby mocha is fine


That's right!
1 little monkey is jumping on the bed.

Although our appointment was pushed back, we were still able to be seen that day.

So I dropped my draws and had another meeting with Wandy.
One cute little heartbeat and all the fixings.
I was unexpectedly sadder than I anticipated.
I cried a little. Then cried a lot.
Thankfully everyone was able to cheer me up- for the most part.
I know there's nothing more I could have done but there were 2...... And now there's 1 :(
I feel like I let everyone down.
The competitive side in me really was hoping for two; it worked for previous surrogates, so why not me? Why couldn't I get to give them 2 babies ? I tested positive SO early!
Plus I remember when I had my first son, my husband and I fought over him all the time about who got to change him and feed him and snuggle. Neither of us wanted to share.
Considering the long road the guys have been down, I thought it would be pretty neat if they could kind of both have a baby to themselves.
Thought squashed.
I'm better today after a good nights sleep- but it's still sad.
No more dwelling on it though because I need to concentrate on the strong and healthy one that's brewing.
Nothing but positive from here on out.
It's always a fantastic time hanging out with the dads. We went to their beautiful house and I got to see the baby's room :) so cute!
We watched an episode of The New Normal and laughed at all the inappropriate- ness.
Then went to dinner and whole foods for more pregnancy tea!
Excluding the car accident, it was an awesome day. I got homemade-from-scratch chocolate chip cookies. Mhmmm. Be jealous because I'm not even exaggerating ..... Best cookies I've EVER had. Fo real!
Next ultrasound appointment is February 8th!
God knows my heart and knows what I'm hoping to get out of this experience. I trust that He is in control of every aspect of this journey. Reality is, with a twin pregnancy comes greater risk. God truly only gives us what we can handle and it's not up to anyone else to question.
Myself included.
God wants me to carry one sweet baby for these rockin dads- so that's what I'm going to do!

So far my symptoms are very manageable. I've been sick for what seems like a week but its not pregnancy related. I do have morning sickness most evenings but I'm learning how to avoid it. It's no where near as bad as it was with my boys so I am praising God for that!
The shots on the other hand, well, there's no sugar coating that. They stink! It's all in love for this sweet bean and I know it will be over soon. I just find it funny that at one point I was excited for shots. What was I thinking :/

I've started looking into a birth doula and possibly a birth photographer.

Call me crazy but I'm also planning on going med free this birth. I know I can do it as long as I have experienced help guiding me through.

So so so looking forward to feb 8th when I get to see the guys again and see how much the baby has grown. I love seeing them when they look like gummy bears :)